Hm.. as usual it's been awhile since I've posted. It's prolly because life still tends to be its usual rollercoaster and I'm spending my time learning to enjoy the twists & turns and ups & downs instead of stressing over them. *wry smile* And I'm not accomplishing that as often as I'd like either. Ah well...
There's only 8 days left 'til fall term starts. I think I've been deeply frustrated lately that I don't really know, or perhaps don't like, where my life is headed. I took Dr. Krumpe's advice and looked at job listings online and I don't find any of them exciting. So on a whim I went back and looked at St. Andrew's college and I like the looks of their Therapeutic Horsmanship minor. I'm aching for horseyness in my life again. It would seem strange that I would have this struggle considering I own a horse, but.... something always finds it way in to keep me from it. For my time off from work, it's been the heat. Mom seems to think I've been putting my social life first (not calling that a sin though, just an observation). Funny I should feel the disclamer necessary though. Is my heart telling me I'm sacrificing something I shouldn't? I don't know anymore. At any rate it seems all my academic endeavors beyond AB are hanging upon money. I refuse to go in debit. I don't care to owe most of my income to anyone when I first break free of college. I'd like to be able to start saving right away for land and/or a house. I sound so domestic don't I? %)... I guess I've been pondering what I want out of life and how to get there and if any of it is really possible. I kinda feel like Reb Tevye, in my own way. And then I went to boundless.org and read this article. :).. and mom's pestering me to get offline since my darling boyfriend isn't here for me to talk to. I'm thinking about calling him and telling him to get online. I need to call him about Friday night. And Wednesday next week. Why oh why can't life be perfect? *sly grin*
*sigh* *humming "If I Were a Rich Man" to myself* I'm not really in as bad a mood as I may seem to be. Oh! I get pictures back from whitewater rafting tomorrow! Happy thought! :) I'm not in as bad as a mood as I may seem. Just a rather contemplative one... internal struggles tend to do that for me. BAH! I'm gonna quit being a wet blanket and get outta here. Much love to you my peoples! May God continue to bless you and fill you with His love.
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