Wow.. ever so much has happened since I posted last. Graham and I have become way more serious in that we've finally admitted that we're not "just friends" though we're not offically dating. (Offically dating will be him asking my parents' permission which originally wasn't required by my parents but since I've talked to them they're expecting to be asked. They are also quite enthusiastic and will give him permission.) Um... yeah so I have a will-be-boyfriend...lol... He says I should just call him my boyfriend b/c we basically are dating - we act like a dating couple and talk about things as if we were dating. *sigh* I'm going to see him at his work tonight. It's his last night at the Market before he starts working with Brian for the summer. Sometimes the relationship scares me and sometimes I scare myself in it. Sometimes we seem to be moving to fast and other times everything seems normal. And he doesn't seem 18 to me. I'm really not comprehending the fact that he's graduating from highschool this May. Wow. I'm a bit nervous about tonight. But ah well.
My beloved doggie died unexpectedly on Thursday. I took her to the vet on Tuesday to get regular shots and have her examined b/c she had a bit of a dry cough. The vet and I talked about it and he said it may be a 50/50 chance it was either her heart (she had a murmur) or an upper respitory. She was so chipper I decided to wait on x-rays and go home with antiboitics and prednizone (sp?) and just bring her in if things got worse. Wednesday morning Courtney and I left for our long planned vacation to Charleston and Sandy hadn't changed much but she still seemed very happy and in good spirits running around outside. By that evening, Mom said she seem to be just a bit down and if she wasn't better by morning she'd be taking Sandy back to the vet. Thursday morning mom said Sandy looked like she'd been standing all night and her lungs seem so congested that if she laid down she might not be able to breathe. So Dad let her outside to go potty while he and mom got ready to take her back to the vet. Dad left the van door open when he let her out and when he went to call her back in she was sitting in the driver's seat with her usual "You're not leaving w/o me right? I saw my leash earlier." And seemed really excited to go for a car ride. Mom sat with her in the back seat and all she can guess is Sandy had a heart attack on the way died before she reached the vet. Mom called me while Court and I were out on Folly Beach to tell me. None of us expected it. She didn't seem the least bit truly ill. Even the vet was a little freaked when he found out. *sigh*.. It's been hard on all of us. I think mom especially since that's the first time she's ever had a pet die in her arms. I stayed on vacation in Charleston and came home on Saturday like planned. It was hard coming home on Saturday. There was no happy doggie face to greet me. I still look for her. And I guess I will for awhile.
Graham's been such a sweetheart about the whole thing. Mom knew he'd be calling me while I was out of town so she called him to let him know Sandy had died (he's gotten to meet her twice.. my dog that is...)and he called me almost immeadiately after mom talked to him to make sure I was doing okay was going to be alright and I burst into tears and well... he's just been wonderful and understanding. Mom rather adores him. :) So do I. *sheepish smile*
Well, I've been posting all of this at work so obviously work this summer at AB-Tech has been incredibly slow. And I'm not going to Va. Tech in the fall. Financial aid didn't come through. So I shall consider it a God-closing-a-door thing.
Graham has said that unless God says otherwise he really doesn't see any reason for us to not get married. And honestly our families get along very well and we get along very well with each other's family. Mom and Dad have started coming to Gateway with me. Did I ever mention that they came to Easter lunch at the Bry*nt's house with me? Yeah...it went rather well. Mom's encouraging Graham and I to spent a good bit of time together. His parents would prefer we be "offically" dating before we do that so... that's what the slight kink in things is.
Well, I have 10 mintues left before I leave to see Graham and eat supper so I guess I'd better get goin'. Sorry to leave you hanging.. I feel like I've just blurst (yes I do indeed mean blurst.. and it's a word cuz I said so) much upon you and I'm not sure what to think of it all myself. I miss my dog. Graham's gonna be such an awesome daddy and husband, but should he be my husband? (it's not like we don't have plenty of time to decide)*sigh* What on earth am I doing with my life? I don't want more school but it seems like I must. I really want to go on vacation with Graham someday. We'd have fun together. AHHHHHH too many thoughts!!!! too many thoughts!!!!
