"I'll lift you up and hold you near,
Warm your heart and calm your fears.
I don't want to lose this love I've found.
So burn my bridges, burn them down."
~ Collective Soul "Burning Bridges"
*Sigh* I know, I shouldn't be listening to love songs... especially when I have a headache... makes me wish a bit more for that "special someone" to come along and cradle my head and either sing it (if he can) or put that particular song on and tell me it's for me. :) I'm such a sappy romantic aren't I? %) :) Course if you think I'm sappy you should check out the latest few strips of 9 Chickweed Lane... Very cute and rather sappy %)%)...ah me... I do believe it's the bane of Valentine's. But I'm going to refuse to feel sorry for myself. For pete's sake I've chosen to be single. I truly am avoiding unnecessary heartache this way. It is better to spend several Valentine's w/o a date and broken heart, and wait 'til God brings "the one" I'll get to spend not only my every Valentine's but the rest of my life with. I wish some people could see how this "momentary" ache is worth dating (hopefully) only one person in the end. I, of all people, know it's not easy, and wonder if I'm just tormenting myself. But then I look deeper and see how much remorse and pain I'd feel at breaking off a relationship, and I think the wait is worth it. Why can't people trust God to write their love story??!! I KNOW it's not easy, but don't you think it'd be BETTER? Immensly better? *sigh* That those I find frustration with could hear the cry of my heart. But they don't want to hear it and make their ears deaf. They're too scared God will let them miss out. If tears could convince... oceans have been cryed for those who won't hear this sweet truth. Yes, it seems bitter at first... and at times during it continues to feel bitter. But those are the times you take your requests - your petitions - your deep heart cries - to your Heavenly Father. And if you stay before Him, and earnestly press for an answer, He does not fail to be all satisfying. It does take time because it is a changing of the heart... but it comes. And now I hit the things in my heart that go deeper than I have words for. Daddy, give revelation of these things to those who need it. Show it to Your children even if they ask for it in the most round about way. I love you, Daddy. I love you.
