"No longer will they call you Deserted, or name your land Desolate. But you will be called Hephzibah, and your land Beulah; for the Lord will take delight in you, and your land will be married." Isaiah 62:4
Friday, December 10, 2004
A real quick one...
Friday, December 03, 2004
Um...
Saturday, November 06, 2004
A Bit of Catching Up? And a Lot of Thinking
- I dropped Digital Photography. I don't need the class and I don't need the stress and risk of a "B" pulling down my GPA. Oh, and my last assignment I turned in... the bottom of my boots were too clean and caused the picture to look set up. %)...However my teacher wanted to see the reins loop all the way around the boots, how set up would that look?..you can see why I dropped. Oh, and a side annoyance... he persisted in call the reins "leather straps" or "bull whip" even after being politely corrected. (I have roping reins on my everyday bridle so it does look a wee bit like a bull whip, but still...)
- I feel like this is bragging *blush* but by accident I am #1 of the 14 people in my calculus class. The #3 person is my class is my buddie Laurie and I'm hoping the only other girl in our class got the #2 spot. That would so rock to have the girls (I believe all non-engineering majors) getting the best grades in calculus out of a bunch of likely engineers.
- I just got Nicole C. Mullen's CD "Everyday People" and Superchic[k]'s CD "Last One Picked" and I LOVE them both. Such good wonderful solid stuff. I've needed it.
And so I think that's the most of the news...:) my fave quote so far from the everyday ppl CD is " You didn't die for me. You ain't my superhero. Why should I wanna be like you any ole way?!".... yup... man I've needed it. And from superchic[k].."sometimes it's hard to be a one girl revolution..". It is hard to be ones self sometimes. Especially in a world that seems so bent on being contrary to everything I am. But God gives us strength and we keep on keepin' on. "He keeps in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast because he trusts Him." Steadfast because he trusts God. How oft' is our trust in our Heavenly Daddy that secure? Ya know it kinda ties in with some of what Mike Adkins was teaching at the Fall Retreat. Jesus promised to give us living water that we would never be thirsty again, yet so many of us are. Why? Because we've been drinking from the world's well and not from the well of God. You can't drink from both. One promises only increased thirst and the other utter satisfaction. Where is the utter satisfaction? It comes when we drink from the well of God until we ourselves become a wellspring. I know I've learned it to a point. This school year has not been the desert I've lived through in the past. But I'm not always satisfied. Oh for the days when school won't demand my attention and I can become so full of God that "rivers of living water issue forth" from me! Yet as I type this I feel that I am embarking on the journey. :) *sigh* A "moonshine" paper just lies between me and that... well a paper and 3 calc tests, 2 spanish tests, and some lit. quizes etc... okay the rest of the semester to be exact. %). I think I've just talked myself out of Calc 2 next semester. Or maybe not. I feel so much that the student lifestyle (that of incessant studying) and seeking after God can not truely co-exsist for any extended period of time. We literally starve our hearts and spirits to get an education. Oh sure, there are Christian organizations and functions... but if God said "I want you to spend the next two days in seclusion with me" how easily could any one of us do it? Or would you even be willing?...... thoughts meandering..... God give me patience with shallow people and boys. Particularly boys who insist on hanging with and being with the "in"/"popularity" of the shallow people. Shallow people are scared/freaked out/don't understand deep people when they're just being themselves. Then let them be that way. Why be shallow with them? So you can witness? How much of a witness are you? You're either a) giving up your own goodness of depth to be able to connect with them therefore showing them that your depth is compromise-able and perhaps not even real or b) you're showing/bringing them into a shallow Christianity. Scenario b makes me angrier than anything. Why would anyone want to be a shallow Christian? If people are truely seeking the truth then they will be willing to face the deep Christianity though it scares them. Aye... those are some tough words and I fail in living up to them sometimes. But I keep trying and I keep doing. :) My poor girlies... This doesn't apply to you as far I as I know... It's for the boys. That they would hear my words and LISTEN! with their HEARTS!!!!!! Part of me wants to shake them and part of me wants to sit and cry for the truth they don't like/want/won't hear. Did I say don't be friends with the shallow ppl? No! My friend Laurie from calc is worldly shallow but we get along and help one another with our studying... but I do my best not to sacrifice my deep self to being shallow. It's being in the world and not of it and so many Christians have given up and become shallow like the world they're in. Or they haven't even seen depth because those who have, have given up on it. Yeah, this is something that's been on my heart alot lately. I don't know what to do about it. It breaks my heart to see people convinced that they want what's second best. It's hard to trust steadfastly sometimes, but if you'll pull through and abandon yourself to God, He will satisfy you. He will never disappoint us if we trust steadfastly in Him. Can I please pound this into the heads of those who need to hear it? :) If I thought it would work I would. But I have to trust such people as I would like to pound this into to God. He knows how to reach them lots better than I do. It's my job to be faithful in prayer......................
.......Boys boys boys. When will they ever grow up and become men? Not by the world's standards but real men in the Word? *sigh* It seems they come so close and something comes along and totally de-rails them from their journey into God. They don't forsake or walk away from God. They compromise or just plateau and never really take that step over into manhood. They get soooo close. *musing smile* But then.. what would I do if there really were men in my life?...*soft chuckle*.. trip all over myself trying to catch one?...lol.. prolly. ah me.. And that brings me full circle back to wanting more time to become a woman of the Word me-self. .......*amused hmph*.. and I got online to research for my paper %) *sigh*. I bet you're wondering about the paper (at lest I know Becks is ;)).
We're reading Our Southern Highlanders by Horace Kephart (I'd suggest reading it especially if you are interested in the history of southern Appalachia) and we have to write a research paper on some topic related to the book. I'm attempting to do my paper on the economics of moonshining, ie, why the mountaneers made moonshine, it was easier to transport than corn, it didn't spoil like corn, etc. Not turning up much evidence... it'd almost be easier to write a paper on the history of Moonshine (but that's Laurie's research topic...yeah we have calc and lit. together) since that's the info I've been turning up. Whatever... I'm about ready to head off to see what Mom's watching on TV and then head to bed... I've been typing for over an hour. Amazing.. and theraputic... I suppose :).. we shall see.. I really should get goin' though. I love ya'll. God bless you each abundantly (especially if you needed to hear what I had to say and LISTENED with your heart ;)). Be good ;) or at least try...lol :)**hugs**
Good night.
Saturday, October 30, 2004
Commentary on the New Pics Below
Friday, October 15, 2004
For Meditation
"With my soul I have desired thee in the night; yea, with my spirit within me will I seek thee early..." Isaiah 26:9a (KJV)
"All night long I search for you; earnestly I seek for God..." Isaiah 26:9a (NLT)
Sunday, October 10, 2004
It's Really Late
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Okay..so the roller coaster can go up anytime now...
On the bright side, Debbie (a math lab....well, almost legend, the lady lives there doing her math homework and we all love her) is trying to name her new puppy. She says it's bites and attaches itself to your ankles like a little piranha. I told her she should call it "Anha" short for piranha. All the math lab workers like it. Debbie just couldn't quite grasp why it had to be Anha and why we so emphatically liked that name. I dunno why.. we just did. :) Debbie finally got to the point of saying "There's something behind this isn't there? It's either your girlfriend's name [pointing to Nathan (he doesn't have a girlfriend)] or your mother's name [pointing to me]." We both denied the allegations but Debbie kept going on so, that we couldn't stop snickering. So I finally had to give in, "Yeah, Debbie, we couldn't fool you could we? You're right. It's Nathan's girlfriend's name." Debbie came back with "Yeah! I bet you met her on the trail didn'tchya!" and she giggled. Nathan didn't seem particularly pleased. He made it clear it wasn't true. :) I thought it was kinda funny. He shoulda played it for all it was worth with Debbie. She'd have gotten a kick out of it in the end. (Oh, side note, Debbie's old enough to be my and most of the tutors' mom, so she wasn't hitting on Nathan or anything... just teasing him.)
I'm tired and beat. Oh, Becks.. thanks for the hug dearest. It was much needed. My condolences for Benji dog. As for the kitty.... Hershey? I mean really why not? or Reeses..or booger chin (hey you said it not me ;)..lol..) Okie I really need to go to bed. God Bless ya'll.
Buenas Noches
Monday, October 04, 2004
What a Roller Coaster...
Buenas noches mis amigo/as.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Low D High minus High D Low over Low! Low!
Walkin' on sunshine, whoa/Walkin' on sunshine, whoa/ Walkin' on sunshine, whoa/Now don't it feel good!!!
Friday, September 24, 2004
Random thinking instead of studying...
:) Fall is coming strangely this year. Only the oak tree next to Nick's barn is following the usual pattern. It always seems that the leaves change as if God had a huge paintbrush that He just allows to drip across the mountians and the individual trees such that different splotches of their folage turn until God sees fit to paint them in their full array of color. Not so this year. It seems that God is sitting back and ...... waiting? That He isn't doing the painting but He's letting the sun kiss the trees. And everyday the rays of the sun seep deeper and deeper so that on the day they reach the ground the trees will be in their full array of color. :) Interesting little muse, eh? :) It's good to muse though:):)... for now it beats the biochemical explanation all to heck...lol.. don't worry, I'll spare thee ;).
Such a mish-mash of thoughts in my head right now. I have preterite tense and extra homework assignments in Spanish to master. Two sections of Calc homework (that I'd rather be doing than the previous) and a psychotic printer that doesn't want to print my pictures so I can decide on my architechture assignment. Oh, and a speech to write for lit. And a party to go Saturday evening.. and a friend I'd like to get together with Saturday afternoon.. and 2 1/2 days to accomplish everything in. With room somewhere for Bible study and refreshing in the Word. "I can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me"... *wry grin* aye, that's what God just rememinded me of. Ah yes, and my printer is healed and maded whole/ blessed by God therefore it isn't psychotic. *sigh* ah me...I guess I'd better get started on all this junk. God keep thee all! (I'm liking my archaic pronouns...can you tell?:).) BE GOOD!
Eh, one addtional thing... I got a 96% on my chap. 2 calc test...now for chap. 5 spanish grade to come back. :) Thank God for having the mind of Christ! I really am going now.... ;)
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
What a Day
numero uno! :D... My chapter 2 calculus test. Yes, it made my day good. I wish my labs were as easy as that test. Valerie LOVES insanely hard labs. But if you can get her labs, her tests are easy. Or at least I think so. There was only one thing that half way freaked me out. The other ones I think I'm good on. At least one of my classmates (Laurie) thought about the problems the same way I did. *shrug* That's at least two of us thinkin' like that. And one of the two of us have the mind of Christ ;) :).
numero dos!...I got help with my architecture assingment! :D Pictures of buildings are something that... well... I don't often walk through a building and stop and go "man! I love this architecture! I think this would be a great picture."... Don't get me wrong; I think there are some awesome buildings out there. I just never think photographically of them... oh heck, you get my point. So anywho, my friend & fellow math lab tutor, Nathan, hung out w/me downtown and helped me look at architecture a little differently. And he explained the metering mode/whatever on my cam. :D That was really cool...lol... I'm so ? funny? odd?... if someone will just tell what something on my camera does I'll remember it for the most part. But if I just read about it, I don't always get it. Oh, and REAL coffee. *soft chuckle* I was introduced to real coffee today. Alas, Starbucks is not real my friends, the cool double decker bus/coffee shop downtown is where real coffee is made. And it is good. Starbucks and Barney's don't make a grasshopper coffee-something-or-another to order like they do there. Strong too... well, strong enough to wake me up completely. That's coffee that accomplishes something ;). I haven't truely had that effect since Brazillian coffee... but we won't go there *innocent smile*.
numero tres.... okay so this wasn't good but it added to the overall "what a day" experience. I came home quite content and (thank goodness) fully awake from my jaunt in Asheville and headed out to feed mi caballo (horse). When I whistled for him, he just looked up and nickered as loudly as he could. Odd, he normally ignores me and then comes ambling up. I whistled again. Nick made this lurching forward attempt at walking towards me and stopped with his right hoof just barely touching the ground. Then he made a more collected attempt at limping forward that worked. Long and the short of it? I spent the next two hours diagnosing a hoof abcess, finding where on the bottom of his hoof I should make a hole for it to drain, doing so, and putting a epsom salt soak/poultice on it for the night. *yawn* mmm. Maybe I should try for that Vet. Assistant degree from AB Tech. I have nack for it..*yawn*.. but I'm taking a year off. Except perhaps to take Calc. 2. *eye roll*...I better just go to bed now :)... I need to get up earlier so I can check my boy's hoof. *yawn* Hasta luego my peeps...
Sunday, September 19, 2004
"Just take the green from the grass...
Yeah, I've had that song stuck in my head today. But try singin' it to God. :) It's quite nice. Ya know what else is cool? We have the mind of Christ. Yeah, I know you know it. I've been told that and have known it most of my life too. But do you believe it? Do you realize that if you'd studied and done everything in your power to learn something for a class that come test time you have every spiritual right to ask God to help you on the test and talk to Him DURING the test? Seriously! It works too. Ask Him for help when you're studying about what you should focus on. Thank Him for helping you remember everything you've learned. And during the test when you come across something you feel unsure of/don't know, talk to Him about it. I did that for my first calculus test and it worked. It was a review test covering all of pre-calc algebra and pre-calc trig. And with my teacher that isn't easy. She doesn't give you the nice middle of the road stuff. She expects you to be able to do the most challenging problems. I felt completely overwhelmed by the mass of info I had to know, and while I was sitting studying trying to figure how on earth I was going to remember all the sum & difference of cosine,sine, and tangent formulas, all the half & double angle identities, my unit circle, and everything else I stopped and wailed to (rather than asked) God what was I ever gonna do? I immeadiately felt no need to look at the sum & difference formulas again. But I still felt a need to look at the double and 1/2 angle identities. So I did. Come test day sure enough there were 4 out of 10 problems that I was lost on. One was a silly logarithm rule I forgot but God rememinded me how to prove to myself on a calcy. And the other 3 were ones I tried giving up on but after asking God about He reminded me of what He had me focus on in my review time. It took me ten minutes to come to a satisfactory answer on one of them. Another did use a double angle identity but all of them were asking things/ways of thinking about math that I'd never seen before. I felt satisfied when I turned my test in. I still wasn't certain I got those 3 odd ball questions right, but I didn't have a nagging worry about them. Wanna know what I got on the test? A 91%, in the end a 96% because she had to grade it on a 5point scale so everyone would at least pass. And I'm not in a class of dummies either. The test was just that hairy. And God is just that good. And it's not just for me my dears. Don't shake your head and say "yeah, I tried that and it didn't work for me." Be stubborn and tenacious; don't let Satan rob you of what God intends for you. There are so many little ways Satan tries to rob us of God's best for us. And the sad thing is how often he succeeds. Do you realize the Father's great love for you? HE LOVES YOU!!! Yes, I know you know that. But He loves you. He loves you. He loves you. He loves you. Have you seen The Passion? Everytime Jesus stood up, every lash He took, every drop of blood, was His "I love you! I love you! I'm living through this because I can't bear to see you in this pain. I love you! I love you!" And He has freed us from the curse having become a curse for us (Gal.3:13-14). All He asks in return is that we love Him, walk in His love, and keep the faith by walking in faith. We are more than overcomers through Him who loves us (Romans 8:31-39). Facts are facts but the truth is the Word of God. And if we'll speak the truth even in the face of facts that contradict it, those contradicting facts will come into alignment with the Word of God and the truth. When you become convinced of the Father's love for and towards you, you can become convinced and certain that what He has in store for you is inexpressibly good. And not just good to Him...He wants to fulfill your deepest desires, but like a good parent He won't until you're ready for them. He isn't withholding because He wants to. It's driving Him nuts to bless you beyond your wildest dreams. You just have to focus unequivocally on Him. Not because He's selfish, but because He wants to teach you and help you grow so you can receive from Him the wonderous things He has for you. :)...*sigh* There is so much in my heart about this. I pine for all my friends to grasp this, to see how important it is to focus on God. :) Above all to see how not-a-chore it is to focus on Him. Work, yes, but a chore? No. Walking in love is hard sometimes, but it gets easier.. and there is such joy and peace in it.
And as much as I'd like to continue... I must go to bed. God bless you my dears & sir. I pray that this takes hold in your spirits (Eph.1:15-20).
Buenos Noches mi amigo/as
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Bright Skies
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I do think the day after a hurricane is the brightest. Part of a poem I wrote kinda captures today well...
"The crystal clearness of September,
No cloud in sight.
Every leaf in awesome splendor,
Stark-defined by sun's pure light..."
It was one of those days that makes you want to run and never stop for the pure, mad delight of it. Like at the end of The Last Battle of the Chronicles of Narnia when Aslan beacons them "Furthur up! Furthur in!" and they run and don't grow weary...aye, it's Biblical. :) And to think, such a beautiful day on my mountain side and such devastation not so far away. Nine deaths so far for Western North Carolina. I-40 is closed from mile marker 20-something to mile marker 15 on the Tenn. line. The Pigeon River washed away part of the highway and it's closed indefinately. There have been mudslides and downed trees/powerlines all over and they don't expect power to be back on for everyone 'til at least Wednesday. We're blessed they got power back to us so quickly. We only went 24 hours without. The Canton-Clyde area only had one death so that cuts down on the probability that it's someone I know or am related to. But enough of the hurricane...
I've been reading Nathaniel Hawthorne's The Minister's Black Veil and Rappaccini's Daughter for Amer. Lit. They're quite wow. I'm liking Hawthorne the more I read him...lol.. I suppose we all must have our "morbid" favorites, eh? (At least I don't like Faulkner or Hemingway *shudder*... talk about morbid..) Okay.. I'm being boring aren't I? %)
I got to catch up on the Believer's Voice of Victory daily broadcast today! :D... very good stuff. Billye Brim has been teaching on some awesome prophetic things about Jesus wanting us to be able recognize the signs of the times like we recognize the signs of the weather. I'd try to relate them here if I could but I'm still wrapping my mind around them. Billye was talking about the Feast of Shavot (sp? Trumpets) and the blowing of the shofar. I'll always think of Miss Elaine when I hear about the shofar. I love hearing it. :). But anywho... some awesome, awesome stuff. Wow.. there's been so much God-stuff on my heart lately. Perhaps a little at a time I'll share it. But I'd highly suggest checking out the link above and Billye Brim's teachings :)...
- a tuneless happy hum skips softly across my mind - I suppose I should be off checking out my usual online haunts... lol.. and sending a select few the link to my new blog so dear Becca isn't the only one reading this?...lol...*amused smile*
Hasta luego mi amiga/os!
G'night


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