"...There is something in October that sets gypsy blood astir
We must rise and follow her
When from every hill a-flame
She calls and calls each vagabond by name."
~"Vagabond Song" by Bliss Carmen
And my "vagabond" wanderings will soon take me back to the state of my birth. Mom and I leave for Missouri tomorrow for a prayer conference. My heart feels so full of so much right now.... mostly good things.. a few confusing ones. But yesterday was so lovely... I haven't been on a playground swing since before we moved here from Liberty, Mo. I can't describe how lovely it was to be taken back to those carefree days of childhood. I truly felt carefree. :):):)And after listening to the guest speaker at church I'm seriously considering dropping calculus. He was talking about are we really effective in God's kingdom, and what are we known for. Are our conversations effective for the Lord? Is the life we're living effective? And I've been totally defeating the purpose of taking a year off for almost a year now *eye roll at self*. And I've often thought "What would it be like? What would happen if we took the time to study the Bible the way we study all these other things.. not that the study of other things is bad (I delight in chemistry) but what would it be like? What change might happen in our hearts? Do you think we might truly begin to grasp what God has for us and how he loves us? *sigh* There is some fear in my heart of what my friends will think. And some of Satan's lies are already trying to work their way in. But I would be dropping Calc 2 for my own well being. I am smart enough... my ability isn't in question here. I'm not being a slacker. *sigh* I think Nathan will understand, and prolly Hannah and Rebecca, but there's that tiny bit of fear of the rest. And Court will understand. But alas... I'll hopefully get a chance to explain further but I need to get going..
Monday, October 24, 2005
Monday, October 17, 2005
Strange and Glorious Days
Praise God from whom all blessings flow
For the beauty of the earth
Praise Him all creatures here below
For the glory of the skies
Praise Him above ye heavenly host
For the love which from our birth
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost
Over and around us lies
Lord of all to thee we raise, this our hymn of grateful praise.
Amen.
It's weird... highschool seniors hitting on me. I think.. I'm not sure, but then coming to understand more what God's called me to.. or at least what He thinks of me and how he loves me. It's strange this life we're given. Pastor Jay was so good yesterday. To think I was considering not going to church yesterday. *head-shake* :) It's always silly-ness to consider not going to church. Especially when you know you're plugged in to an awesome place where you know the people love you for who you are and you know the Bible is taught literally. Part of me is in awe and part of me would like to dance..slowly.. in adoration. It's been a long time since have had that song without a tune in my heart. I don't think I could hum it either. You'd only know the rythm if I danced to it. If it stays with me, perhaps this evening I will. Okay... I've got to leave to for work/school. I love ya'll!
For the beauty of the earth
Praise Him all creatures here below
For the glory of the skies
Praise Him above ye heavenly host
For the love which from our birth
Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost
Over and around us lies
Lord of all to thee we raise, this our hymn of grateful praise.
Amen.
It's weird... highschool seniors hitting on me. I think.. I'm not sure, but then coming to understand more what God's called me to.. or at least what He thinks of me and how he loves me. It's strange this life we're given. Pastor Jay was so good yesterday. To think I was considering not going to church yesterday. *head-shake* :) It's always silly-ness to consider not going to church. Especially when you know you're plugged in to an awesome place where you know the people love you for who you are and you know the Bible is taught literally. Part of me is in awe and part of me would like to dance..slowly.. in adoration. It's been a long time since have had that song without a tune in my heart. I don't think I could hum it either. You'd only know the rythm if I danced to it. If it stays with me, perhaps this evening I will. Okay... I've got to leave to for work/school. I love ya'll!
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Rainy Days
Welp.. the bonfire had to be postponed 'til next Friday and while Jason, Jess, and Josiah won't be able to come perhaps Nathan and Kathryn and Graham will be able too. Poor Caleb... I think he'll come but he doesn't know what to without Jason there to play guitar with him. They're becoming quite a pair. :) Jessie and Jay had a recent bad stretch in their relationship, but it seems to only have lasted a day or two. They were behaving normally last night. Yup, last night since the bonfire was cancled Caleb, Courtney, Josiah, Jason, and Jessie and I hung out and went bowling, and saw War of the Worlds at the Brew 'n View. As for the movie I'm sorry I saw it. Maybe I'd enjoy it more if I'd read the book but... I found the movie a rather disgusting attempt at sci-fi horror that left me feeling a bit disturbed. And the ending was far too blunt. The only good part of the movie is the part Dakota Fanning played was a horse crazy girl who won a 3rd place ribbon at a horse show that looks exactly like some of my Tri-County ribbons. And she had some really cool/classic Breyer Models too. Definately a cool kid. :) But otherwise it wasn't worth watching the movie.
We did have a great time hanging out though! After we finally decided what time we were all gonna get together peoples dispersed from school and Jay and I went over to Barnes & Noble. As a disclaimer he entered the children's section first. I only followed. *innocent angelic smile* I found Roll of Thunder Hear My Cry and I never realized it was a kid's book. Perhaps young adult fiction but... it's a little rough for kids. But then I was probably eleven or so when I read it so maybe not. Anywho... I don't own it so I had to buy it. Jason had fun giving me a hard time that there's a difference between browsing children's books and buying children's books. As ususal I think he's full of mud.
Courtney met up with us at the bowling alley and we had a blast. Jason taught Caleb how to throw a curve ball whatever thing that Jason does. Courtney and I both got strikes. I think Josiah got some strikes too and of course Caleb and Jason got strikes. We started this thing that everyone who isn't bowling makes big hand motions in the direction the ball needs to go while the bowler is watching the ball go down the lane. It only helped Courtney though. *shrug* but it was fun. Then Josiah started us getting off doing the wave while the bowler was in mid-throw. It was crazy. I'm sure the people around us thought we were nuts. But we were being crazy together so it was great. And then at the Brew 'n View. Well... there musta been something in the root beer...
Jason and I did that dance thing (DDR..that step on arrows thing). And some time during that Josiah confessed to Jessie that ever since he was little he always wanted to be a latin dancer. But that's not what Jessie heard. She heard "lap" dancer. The jokes - good and bad - flowed from there and ended somewhere around Caleb making the comment that "I like this Greek pizza and all but, dang! With all this garlic I'm not gonna get to kiss anyone all night!" which was met with a sypathetic "awwww" from the girls. Jay and Josiah got indignant. Jason made some comment to tie that back to Josiah's lap dancing... I'm prolly better off for not remebering it but I think it was God ordained he was stuck sitting between me and Jessie at supper. She and I think enough alike that Jason was doomed to be slapped simultaneously throughout supper. It was a great evening....
But I need to get my day started! I'm still in my pj's and it's almost 1 pm. Kay.. I love ya'll!!
Oh P.S. Arthur is so hilariously confused. It'd be entirely hilarious if it weren't so pathetic. You know, I've prayed so much for clarily in this relationship and I think I'm finally seeing. When we were younger he was so spiritually mature in someways that I never realized how incredibly socially immature the boy really is. He thinks he knows so much but he doesn't really have a clue. But anyway... I need to get goin'. I love ya'll and I love you Heavenly Daddy.
We did have a great time hanging out though! After we finally decided what time we were all gonna get together peoples dispersed from school and Jay and I went over to Barnes & Noble. As a disclaimer he entered the children's section first. I only followed. *innocent angelic smile* I found Roll of Thunder Hear My Cry and I never realized it was a kid's book. Perhaps young adult fiction but... it's a little rough for kids. But then I was probably eleven or so when I read it so maybe not. Anywho... I don't own it so I had to buy it. Jason had fun giving me a hard time that there's a difference between browsing children's books and buying children's books. As ususal I think he's full of mud.
Courtney met up with us at the bowling alley and we had a blast. Jason taught Caleb how to throw a curve ball whatever thing that Jason does. Courtney and I both got strikes. I think Josiah got some strikes too and of course Caleb and Jason got strikes. We started this thing that everyone who isn't bowling makes big hand motions in the direction the ball needs to go while the bowler is watching the ball go down the lane. It only helped Courtney though. *shrug* but it was fun. Then Josiah started us getting off doing the wave while the bowler was in mid-throw. It was crazy. I'm sure the people around us thought we were nuts. But we were being crazy together so it was great. And then at the Brew 'n View. Well... there musta been something in the root beer...
Jason and I did that dance thing (DDR..that step on arrows thing). And some time during that Josiah confessed to Jessie that ever since he was little he always wanted to be a latin dancer. But that's not what Jessie heard. She heard "lap" dancer. The jokes - good and bad - flowed from there and ended somewhere around Caleb making the comment that "I like this Greek pizza and all but, dang! With all this garlic I'm not gonna get to kiss anyone all night!" which was met with a sypathetic "awwww" from the girls. Jay and Josiah got indignant. Jason made some comment to tie that back to Josiah's lap dancing... I'm prolly better off for not remebering it but I think it was God ordained he was stuck sitting between me and Jessie at supper. She and I think enough alike that Jason was doomed to be slapped simultaneously throughout supper. It was a great evening....
But I need to get my day started! I'm still in my pj's and it's almost 1 pm. Kay.. I love ya'll!!
Oh P.S. Arthur is so hilariously confused. It'd be entirely hilarious if it weren't so pathetic. You know, I've prayed so much for clarily in this relationship and I think I'm finally seeing. When we were younger he was so spiritually mature in someways that I never realized how incredibly socially immature the boy really is. He thinks he knows so much but he doesn't really have a clue. But anyway... I need to get goin'. I love ya'll and I love you Heavenly Daddy.
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Joline
Joline, Joline, Joline, Joline
Please don't take my man...
Jason burned the CD's Hannah made him and Caleb and a couple mixed CD's for me recently and I've been listening to them. I really like them but I think I'm ready for another song to get stuck in my head.
I've been grouchy lately and there's no good reason why! I'm grouchy and annoyed at myself for being grouchy! I'm nuts!
Whelp the bonefire is this Friday... I'm looking forward to it and I think everyone else is too. I'm hopin' we'll get to dance some... waltzing mostly unless someone has some swing or the boys can play swing on the guitar. Jason's still threatening to talk to Nicky. Why he wants to scare my poor horse, I have no idea. I have no idea why I'm posting tonight. I'm kinda fried from that test. I know I got one wrong... infact 2 of the easy ones wrong.. but I got both hard ones right. *eye roll* go figure :).
Oh! Jost Verdu has taken to insulting me again. We see him in the cafeteria frequently though no one bothers to talk to him, but anywho I was buying lunch for a change and he came up and started talking to me while I was waiting for my order. He was rather decent and we talked about Hitchhicker's Guide. Then he asked me what I had ordered. I told him the steak sub (It's WONDERFUL by the way... Caleb discovered it and oh heavens... it has Greek/Italian seasoning and oh... it's great:D :D ) And Josh just raised an eyebrow and said "wow calories" and walked away. I find it rather amusing that he can be so blatantly mean and still expect me to be falling at his feet begging him to go out with me. It made Grace livid. She's gonna go over to him one of these days and just punch him... give him a black eye.. or something quite unpleasant. But man... if you're ever around AB -Tech and have about $2.50 to spend I'll split it with you. It's heavenly and it's so stinkin' huge I can only eat half of it at once.
Welp.. I"m gonna head off tonight.. my laundry's done and there's a movie on I've been wanting to see.. I love ya'll! G'night!
Please don't take my man...
Jason burned the CD's Hannah made him and Caleb and a couple mixed CD's for me recently and I've been listening to them. I really like them but I think I'm ready for another song to get stuck in my head.
I've been grouchy lately and there's no good reason why! I'm grouchy and annoyed at myself for being grouchy! I'm nuts!
Whelp the bonefire is this Friday... I'm looking forward to it and I think everyone else is too. I'm hopin' we'll get to dance some... waltzing mostly unless someone has some swing or the boys can play swing on the guitar. Jason's still threatening to talk to Nicky. Why he wants to scare my poor horse, I have no idea. I have no idea why I'm posting tonight. I'm kinda fried from that test. I know I got one wrong... infact 2 of the easy ones wrong.. but I got both hard ones right. *eye roll* go figure :).
Oh! Jost Verdu has taken to insulting me again. We see him in the cafeteria frequently though no one bothers to talk to him, but anywho I was buying lunch for a change and he came up and started talking to me while I was waiting for my order. He was rather decent and we talked about Hitchhicker's Guide. Then he asked me what I had ordered. I told him the steak sub (It's WONDERFUL by the way... Caleb discovered it and oh heavens... it has Greek/Italian seasoning and oh... it's great:D :D ) And Josh just raised an eyebrow and said "wow calories" and walked away. I find it rather amusing that he can be so blatantly mean and still expect me to be falling at his feet begging him to go out with me. It made Grace livid. She's gonna go over to him one of these days and just punch him... give him a black eye.. or something quite unpleasant. But man... if you're ever around AB -Tech and have about $2.50 to spend I'll split it with you. It's heavenly and it's so stinkin' huge I can only eat half of it at once.
Welp.. I"m gonna head off tonight.. my laundry's done and there's a movie on I've been wanting to see.. I love ya'll! G'night!
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Calculus and the Time Continue-um
Yes, I do realize my spelling of the title isn't correct but at the moment it seems to fit. :) According to mom I've been in a grouchy mood recently and I suppose I have been. I hate to admit it could possibly be related to Arthur but in part I suppose it is. Wednesday I got irritated with Graham for always "politely" kicking my feet at lunch... I've accused him of playing footsie with me and that still hasn't kept him from it. Well, Wednesday Beth accused him of it too and when he didn't deny it she accused him of having a crush on me. While I was incredulous, she began to list the reasons why it would be quite reasonable for Graham, or any guy for that matter, to have a crush on me and her last point was "you like horses and you're a horse person". And it kinda shocked me that being a horse person was a plus and not only in Beth's book but when I expressed surprise that it was considered a benefit Graham got in on it and went on about how cool that was. I just kept my mouth shut about it and changed the subject to something more comfortable... but I got to thinking about the incident the next day. And I realized a wound in my heart I never knew was there. Years ago when we were kids Art told me he had "no interest whatsoever in horses" and he and most of my peers then treated me like a freak for being horse crazy. And somehow I let that fester into a belief I didn't even realize I had. Somewhere, deep-down, I let myself believe that there was something undesirable about me because I was and am a horse crazy person. That somehow the rest of the universe ( minus other horse people and a rare few girlfriends) thought there was something wrong with me.. with us the horsey people. I guess I can't express how shocking and strange that there is one guy on this planet (who isn't a crass cowboy) who thinks the fact that I'm a horse woman makes me even more attractive. Mind you I've no intentions of falling head-over-heels for Graham Bruns. But I'd never even dared to hope there might be men like that out there who weren't ignorant cowboys. If there are boys like that, then maybe - just maybe - there might be some men too. I'm glad I had flower beds to weed all day Thursday. I weed anything best when I'm upset in some form. I cried for an hour perhaps... for the years of misconception caused by careless, unfeeling words, and for the hope I hardly dare to embrace. I know this may seem like an exaggeration but horses are something that define Megan Redding. I never made a conscious choice to like horses. Loving them has always been like breathing... and to think for so long that that could be unattractive and something my friends just tolerated about me. For me it was and is a big deal.. and I still have a hard time grasping it. It made me so angry at Arthur... it's hard but I know God gives me the grace to forgive him. It's my responsibility to make the choice...the feelings will come later.
*sigh* Finally getting all that out really makes me want to get out of this frump. :)
I went and worked at the Asheville Lyric Opera's Angel Dinner. Both of this season's baritones hit on me.. I think.. well at least it seemed like the guest speaker did... the other guy (Jonathan Ross) is a teacher at AB and teaches graphic design. He made it a point to talk to me during the evening and walk me out to my truck. I think he was just being polite but it felt a bit akward (I can't decide on how to spell that word. It looks like it's meaning.) I mean, we were in a very safe place and I felt fine walking back to my vehicle. There was actually a police car with an officer in it parked right next to me watching the parking lot (this was the Holiday Inn in east Asheville). *shrug*.. I guess it just reminds me of the whole Abraham thing in a way and ... he was really nice but I'll feel a bit more comfortable if I don't see him around for awhile. I suppose the next week shall tell us if does or doesn't stalk the cafeteria. The cafeteria!!! We're getting wireless in Coman and the cafeteria!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D WOOT!!!! Jay and Graham are pretty excited about it.
I survived the Bible study on Tuesday. It wasn't bad at all... only Drew and Erica and Mitchel came and I think they were the perfect crowd for me. We covered James chapter 2 and 3 and Pastor Rick came and sat in on it. Pastor Jay (Liner... Jay Henderson would make an interesting pastor to say the least *eye roll & smile*) said he heard really great things about not only me leading grow group this past week but about the other times I've taught. I guess that's encouraging... I don't know why it makes me feel sheepish. *eye roll at self* ha... church today... the sermon and everything was great except after two Sundays in a row of Brian making certain he got to sit next to me when I asked him where we were going to sit today he (and his mom) invited me to sit with them and then Brian made the comment "but you know this isn't going to help the stories that you're my girlfriend." I mean how bratty and stupid of him! ARG.... If he doesn't want to sit with me that's fine. I only really want to sit with him alot when Court's not there because I don't really like to sit with Shelly. ( Now I do love Shelly but I get distracted when she can't sit still and ... I dunno.. I like stittin' with Court.) So anywho... I'll make certain to sit with the girls next Sunday.
I got to study with Brooke and Caleb this afternoon. We met at Barnes & Noble and got a decent bit accomplished. Caleb and I got so tired of the calculus we got off on Paul shoulda been the first pope and not Peter and how there shouldn't be a pope at all and how time is a continue-um (aight... I really can't think how to spell it right now) and time dilation has something to do with coming infinitely close to the speed of light and isn't a jump in time's continuity. And then we decided we'd gotten in over our heads and went back at the calculus. :)... they can make me very annoyed but I do adore my "lost boys". Somedays they can be so interesting a sweet. Like Graham Bryant was being unusually sweet today in church... I'm not sure why... he still teased and such but there wasn't the hint of meanness that there can be with the Graham-boys. I got so see Nathan on Thursday too. My how I've missed having him around... I'll have to post pics of him soonly... he has a new gottee that he is very proud of. :) Kathryn says it makes him look like he didn't just escape middle school and (among other things) look like quite the hottie. I don't know about hottie... but it definitely looks good. :)
lol...Wouldn't I just be mortified if anyone beyond my girls ever got ahold of my blog address? But it does feel good to get this junk out. And I do feel a bit more obliged to keep it up to some extent since Hannah's away at school and I don't get to talk to my Becks as much. By the way... Becks.. I've tried to post comments several times at Daught of Isaac and it won't let me!!! So don't think I've been neglecting to read your blog... Hannah-Deeah.. I've gotten the fair pictures completely posted and I'm working on pictures from Jay's birthday and what we did to his car. They're at megapix.myphotoalbum.com . So that's all here for tonight. I've got a long day ahead of me tomorrow. I love you all and I love you my Jesus and Rescuer.
*sigh* Finally getting all that out really makes me want to get out of this frump. :)
I went and worked at the Asheville Lyric Opera's Angel Dinner. Both of this season's baritones hit on me.. I think.. well at least it seemed like the guest speaker did... the other guy (Jonathan Ross) is a teacher at AB and teaches graphic design. He made it a point to talk to me during the evening and walk me out to my truck. I think he was just being polite but it felt a bit akward (I can't decide on how to spell that word. It looks like it's meaning.) I mean, we were in a very safe place and I felt fine walking back to my vehicle. There was actually a police car with an officer in it parked right next to me watching the parking lot (this was the Holiday Inn in east Asheville). *shrug*.. I guess it just reminds me of the whole Abraham thing in a way and ... he was really nice but I'll feel a bit more comfortable if I don't see him around for awhile. I suppose the next week shall tell us if does or doesn't stalk the cafeteria. The cafeteria!!! We're getting wireless in Coman and the cafeteria!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D WOOT!!!! Jay and Graham are pretty excited about it.
I survived the Bible study on Tuesday. It wasn't bad at all... only Drew and Erica and Mitchel came and I think they were the perfect crowd for me. We covered James chapter 2 and 3 and Pastor Rick came and sat in on it. Pastor Jay (Liner... Jay Henderson would make an interesting pastor to say the least *eye roll & smile*) said he heard really great things about not only me leading grow group this past week but about the other times I've taught. I guess that's encouraging... I don't know why it makes me feel sheepish. *eye roll at self* ha... church today... the sermon and everything was great except after two Sundays in a row of Brian making certain he got to sit next to me when I asked him where we were going to sit today he (and his mom) invited me to sit with them and then Brian made the comment "but you know this isn't going to help the stories that you're my girlfriend." I mean how bratty and stupid of him! ARG.... If he doesn't want to sit with me that's fine. I only really want to sit with him alot when Court's not there because I don't really like to sit with Shelly. ( Now I do love Shelly but I get distracted when she can't sit still and ... I dunno.. I like stittin' with Court.) So anywho... I'll make certain to sit with the girls next Sunday.
I got to study with Brooke and Caleb this afternoon. We met at Barnes & Noble and got a decent bit accomplished. Caleb and I got so tired of the calculus we got off on Paul shoulda been the first pope and not Peter and how there shouldn't be a pope at all and how time is a continue-um (aight... I really can't think how to spell it right now) and time dilation has something to do with coming infinitely close to the speed of light and isn't a jump in time's continuity. And then we decided we'd gotten in over our heads and went back at the calculus. :)... they can make me very annoyed but I do adore my "lost boys". Somedays they can be so interesting a sweet. Like Graham Bryant was being unusually sweet today in church... I'm not sure why... he still teased and such but there wasn't the hint of meanness that there can be with the Graham-boys. I got so see Nathan on Thursday too. My how I've missed having him around... I'll have to post pics of him soonly... he has a new gottee that he is very proud of. :) Kathryn says it makes him look like he didn't just escape middle school and (among other things) look like quite the hottie. I don't know about hottie... but it definitely looks good. :)
lol...Wouldn't I just be mortified if anyone beyond my girls ever got ahold of my blog address? But it does feel good to get this junk out. And I do feel a bit more obliged to keep it up to some extent since Hannah's away at school and I don't get to talk to my Becks as much. By the way... Becks.. I've tried to post comments several times at Daught of Isaac and it won't let me!!! So don't think I've been neglecting to read your blog... Hannah-Deeah.. I've gotten the fair pictures completely posted and I'm working on pictures from Jay's birthday and what we did to his car. They're at megapix.myphotoalbum.com . So that's all here for tonight. I've got a long day ahead of me tomorrow. I love you all and I love you my Jesus and Rescuer.
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