It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year

"...There is something in October that sets gypsy blood astir
We must rise and follow her
When from every hill a-flame
She calls and calls each vagabond by name."
~"Vagabond Song" by Bliss Carmen

And my "vagabond" wanderings will soon take me back to the state of my birth. Mom and I leave for Missouri tomorrow for a prayer conference. My heart feels so full of so much right now.... mostly good things.. a few confusing ones. But yesterday was so lovely... I haven't been on a playground swing since before we moved here from Liberty, Mo. I can't describe how lovely it was to be taken back to those carefree days of childhood. I truly felt carefree. :):):)And after listening to the guest speaker at church I'm seriously considering dropping calculus. He was talking about are we really effective in God's kingdom, and what are we known for. Are our conversations effective for the Lord? Is the life we're living effective? And I've been totally defeating the purpose of taking a year off for almost a year now *eye roll at self*. And I've often thought "What would it be like? What would happen if we took the time to study the Bible the way we study all these other things.. not that the study of other things is bad (I delight in chemistry) but what would it be like? What change might happen in our hearts? Do you think we might truly begin to grasp what God has for us and how he loves us? *sigh* There is some fear in my heart of what my friends will think. And some of Satan's lies are already trying to work their way in. But I would be dropping Calc 2 for my own well being. I am smart enough... my ability isn't in question here. I'm not being a slacker. *sigh* I think Nathan will understand, and prolly Hannah and Rebecca, but there's that tiny bit of fear of the rest. And Court will understand. But alas... I'll hopefully get a chance to explain further but I need to get going..