Self Frustration

I'm so irritated!!!! I had an opportunity to be a witness to a co-worker and I didn't take it. I hinted but I didn't take the bait. *wail*... Yes, yes... I know I'm not a life failure but, at the moment it feels like it. I missed the opportunity. I played it over in my head on the way home. I coulda touched and old wound... and perhaps brought it healing. Why did I chicken? ARGGGGG!!! When laid before me the opportunity to say "No, Christianity is not about God sending people anywhere. Christianity is about: God created mankind. Mankind rebelled. God said "I love my creation too much to let them walk away, but they broke the rules." So God sent his Son to pay the price for our ancestor's mistake so that we could have a choice. Adam and Eve made a choice to walk away from God and that is the world they left for us to inherit. God wanted better for us. And we have the choice. We can chose to walk after Love Himself... and live life everafter growing in Love. Or we can choose to live life our own way w/o God. That's not what He wants for us. But we can choose the hell our forefathers left to our inheritance," I let the opportunity slip. DRAT! DRAT! DRAT! RAWR!! *deflating sigh* perhaps, perhaps.... now for me to learn mercy for my self... and a chance for grace to take the op the next time it comes along...... and praying for the strength and wisdom to do it.