Very Tired and Dazed

Well, I started today out really well, in constant song that lasted most all day. Oh update that I did talk to Dad about him and Daddy's only advice it that it takes awhile to get to know someone. I'm just wondering how well you can get to know someone when it seems you're always flirting. Not that I don't enjoy it.. in fact I'm not particulary certain I'd want it to stop anytime soon. But still the question remains. I'm about entirely over the age difference. And confession of confessions... I've bared my heart to him and I'm wondering at the sanity or lack thereof on my part. There's part of me that's blown away that he really cares to know that much about me. And another part of me that thinks I've really just lost it to let him hear my rather unedited thoughts. Only time will tell, but right now I just feel... scared. Because that's the closest I've let a guy in or the most any guy has wanted near my heart? And I don't really know if it's safe. Not that he'd intentionally hurt me.. but what if it hurts him? Or he doesn't like what he sees... that'd really be great if he realizes.. ugh.. not what I was after.. but then I wouldn't want him to lie and hang around and be unhappy. ARG! I wish life wasn't stressful!! Or as the previous post.. we were only allowed to like "the one" and be saved this torment of wondering and fear that exsists from being mishandled in the past. Oh for perfection, eh? *sigh* I'd better get me to bed before I think any more.... sometimes I'm not sure if thinking is good or not. I don't really know that much about him.. I guess I've got to stop being shy of asking questions. I've never been nosey but perhaps I'm not nosey enough. *shudder* One minute it seems what's too good to be true might just really be true. And the next I know I've thought I was convinced of things before and was so disasterously wrong and I distrust myself. He seems pretty convinced. I just wonder if he really knows the extent of the power he holds over my heart. I'm really tired.. it's late.. and I really should get to bed. G'night