And here I am at another graduation and I still don't "know" what I'm doing. Oh, yes, I'm working in Math Lab this summer getting a nice $13 an hour, I'll take calc 2 in the fall w/ Val, I'm going to ride my horse again (and show)... but I feel like there should be a "turning point" a new frontier that's actually different. I'm sitting at the edge of life wondering if I'm just blundering my way through it, or when it will begin, or if it already has and "life" really isn't all that interesting and you spend the most of it waiting for something good to happen. Not that good things don't happen. I'm so grateful for the friends God has allowed in my life the past year. I've had my Rebecca, (I love you dearest!) but how wonderous it's been to have my girlfriends at school. Thank You, Daddy for coming through for me and allowing such wonderful people in my life. They are such a constant encouragement and keep me from viewing my fellow man through cynical eyes.
...my toes look wierd..what? you're laughing? Don't; it's true! :D They're naked. Hush now! Quit your laughing.. you'll hurt their feelings.. They don't have any nail polish on and I can't remember the last time I saw them w/o. ....lol... ah me...*sigh* I do fear I'm getting pathetic...
I quoted "Jabberwocky" with antimated voice for Brian, Laurel, Court & Court, and Shelly Tues. night. It was after growth group and I was telling Shelly she should tell it to the 3 year olds she teaches and she'd never heard of it and well... she's crazy so I just went at it full blast and I think every one loved it. I've always wanted to do that. *sheepish smile* I'm quite satisfied for a bit ;).
Hannah-deeah made me a "Meganopolis" CD. It's good... I love it. Some of the songs do remind me of Arthur... but I'm trying to erase the memory of him. At least those memories that make me sad. So oft' they seem like the majority. I guess because it makes me sad to remember the guy he use to be... and know that he isn't that person anymore. It's almost like loosing someone or rebirth in the wrong direction. Instead of being made alive in Christ, the Arthur I loved has been made dead in sin and is ignorning God's direction in his life while thinking all along that he's doing everything God wants... I mean God blesses Arthur's plans for Arthur's life, right? *frustrated sigh* And my heart is so deeply wearied at trying to confront him...
But I was wanting to tell how wonderful my Hannah is! :D:D:D... She is such a darling cute red-head. I wish I had her boldness. *amused smile* I think if you put us together and let us be each other's mouth piece at the right moments we might revoltionize.... well... at least Asheville or perhaps the guys who know us. We definately look out for each other and fight for/protect each other. How grateful I am for that. *thoughful smile*...lol...I shouldn't underestimate our potential. :) At any rate, I love that girl. I think we've really needed eachother this semester whether we've realized it or not.
And my dear Courtney. She's definately been my coffee-house friend. She's one of the few people I know who loves to just sip coffee and browse for hours in Barnes & Noble (you, dear Rebecca, would prefer tea, no? ;)... aye you're the other book browser *hug*). And you know what I love the most about Court? I know that I'm always free from judgement around her. She never judges anyone and I don't say that because my other friends are judgemental.. they're not... but it seems to exist in all of us (myself included) except Courtney. Some people, I think, take it as ditzyness on her part... but it's not. It pretty cool.
*happy sigh*...Dominique makes me laugh. Rebecca too. And both of them at the most insane things. And yet they are my refinement and remind me to be girlie. I am blessed. I shan't go into "my boys", except I love 'em, and I hope I'm a good friend/big sister to them. Hannah's kinda helped me with that... at least helping learning how to show them I love them in thier own backwards way :).
And I am sleepy and ready to go to bed. Dominique's birthday bash today was a success and the Marin's are awesome chicken marinade-ers. I think I'll post some recent pics (not necessarily from the party) and retire.
Love to you all and especially to my Heavenly Daddy.. I love You.
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