A Bit of Catching Up? And a Lot of Thinking

Aye, I have been rather neglectful of my blog haven't I?...hmm... well most recent news:

• I dropped Digital Photography. I don't need the class and I don't need the stress and risk of a "B" pulling down my GPA. Oh, and my last assignment I turned in... the bottom of my boots were too clean and caused the picture to look set up. %)...However my teacher wanted to see the reins loop all the way around the boots, how set up would that look?..you can see why I dropped. Oh, and a side annoyance... he persisted in call the reins "leather straps" or "bull whip" even after being politely corrected. (I have roping reins on my everyday bridle so it does look a wee bit like a bull whip, but still...)
• I feel like this is bragging *blush* but by accident I am #1 of the 14 people in my calculus class. The #3 person is my class is my buddie Laurie and I'm hoping the only other girl in our class got the #2 spot. That would so rock to have the girls (I believe all non-engineering majors) getting the best grades in calculus out of a bunch of likely engineers.
• I just got Nicole C. Mullen's CD "Everyday People" and Superchic[k]'s CD "Last One Picked" and I LOVE them both. Such good wonderful solid stuff. I've needed it.

And so I think that's the most of the news...:) my fave quote so far from the everyday ppl CD is " You didn't die for me. You ain't my superhero. Why should I wanna be like you any ole way?!".... yup... man I've needed it. And from superchic[k].."sometimes it's hard to be a one girl revolution..". It is hard to be ones self sometimes. Especially in a world that seems so bent on being contrary to everything I am. But God gives us strength and we keep on keepin' on. "He keeps in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast because he trusts Him." Steadfast because he trusts God. How oft' is our trust in our Heavenly Daddy that secure? Ya know it kinda ties in with some of what Mike Adkins was teaching at the Fall Retreat. Jesus promised to give us living water that we would never be thirsty again, yet so many of us are. Why? Because we've been drinking from the world's well and not from the well of God. You can't drink from both. One promises only increased thirst and the other utter satisfaction. Where is the utter satisfaction? It comes when we drink from the well of God until we ourselves become a wellspring. I know I've learned it to a point. This school year has not been the desert I've lived through in the past. But I'm not always satisfied. Oh for the days when school won't demand my attention and I can become so full of God that "rivers of living water issue forth" from me! Yet as I type this I feel that I am embarking on the journey. :) *sigh* A "moonshine" paper just lies between me and that... well a paper and 3 calc tests, 2 spanish tests, and some lit. quizes etc... okay the rest of the semester to be exact. %). I think I've just talked myself out of Calc 2 next semester. Or maybe not. I feel so much that the student lifestyle (that of incessant studying) and seeking after God can not truely co-exsist for any extended period of time. We literally starve our hearts and spirits to get an education. Oh sure, there are Christian organizations and functions... but if God said "I want you to spend the next two days in seclusion with me" how easily could any one of us do it? Or would you even be willing?...... thoughts meandering..... God give me patience with shallow people and boys. Particularly boys who insist on hanging with and being with the "in"/"popularity" of the shallow people. Shallow people are scared/freaked out/don't understand deep people when they're just being themselves. Then let them be that way. Why be shallow with them? So you can witness? How much of a witness are you? You're either a) giving up your own goodness of depth to be able to connect with them therefore showing them that your depth is compromise-able and perhaps not even real or b) you're showing/bringing them into a shallow Christianity. Scenario b makes me angrier than anything. Why would anyone want to be a shallow Christian? If people are truely seeking the truth then they will be willing to face the deep Christianity though it scares them. Aye... those are some tough words and I fail in living up to them sometimes. But I keep trying and I keep doing. :) My poor girlies... This doesn't apply to you as far I as I know... It's for the boys. That they would hear my words and LISTEN! with their HEARTS!!!!!! Part of me wants to shake them and part of me wants to sit and cry for the truth they don't like/want/won't hear. Did I say don't be friends with the shallow ppl? No! My friend Laurie from calc is worldly shallow but we get along and help one another with our studying... but I do my best not to sacrifice my deep self to being shallow. It's being in the world and not of it and so many Christians have given up and become shallow like the world they're in. Or they haven't even seen depth because those who have, have given up on it. Yeah, this is something that's been on my heart alot lately. I don't know what to do about it. It breaks my heart to see people convinced that they want what's second best. It's hard to trust steadfastly sometimes, but if you'll pull through and abandon yourself to God, He will satisfy you. He will never disappoint us if we trust steadfastly in Him. Can I please pound this into the heads of those who need to hear it? :) If I thought it would work I would. But I have to trust such people as I would like to pound this into to God. He knows how to reach them lots better than I do. It's my job to be faithful in prayer......................

.......Boys boys boys. When will they ever grow up and become men? Not by the world's standards but real men in the Word? *sigh* It seems they come so close and something comes along and totally de-rails them from their journey into God. They don't forsake or walk away from God. They compromise or just plateau and never really take that step over into manhood. They get soooo close. *musing smile* But then.. what would I do if there really were men in my life?...*soft chuckle*.. trip all over myself trying to catch one?...lol.. prolly. ah me.. And that brings me full circle back to wanting more time to become a woman of the Word me-self. .......*amused hmph*.. and I got online to research for my paper %) *sigh*. I bet you're wondering about the paper (at lest I know Becks is ;)).

We're reading Our Southern Highlanders by Horace Kephart (I'd suggest reading it especially if you are interested in the history of southern Appalachia) and we have to write a research paper on some topic related to the book. I'm attempting to do my paper on the economics of moonshining, ie, why the mountaneers made moonshine, it was easier to transport than corn, it didn't spoil like corn, etc. Not turning up much evidence... it'd almost be easier to write a paper on the history of Moonshine (but that's Laurie's research topic...yeah we have calc and lit. together) since that's the info I've been turning up. Whatever... I'm about ready to head off to see what Mom's watching on TV and then head to bed... I've been typing for over an hour. Amazing.. and theraputic... I suppose :).. we shall see.. I really should get goin' though. I love ya'll. God bless you each abundantly (especially if you needed to hear what I had to say and LISTENED with your heart ;)). Be good ;) or at least try...lol :)**hugs**

Good night.